Saturday, May 29, 2010
I feel scared. Nervous. Depressed. Anxious. Basically a mix of terrible feelings. I feel like my childhood is over. Like it's being ripped out from under my feet and I am going to fall into adulthood unprepared. I am so frightened of what the real world has in store for me. I feel really alone in a world packed with people. It's the worst feeling in the world. I also can't sleep or stop shaking and I feel like I am about to vomit. Probably the best thing ever? Grrrrrrrreat.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Basically my life has been totally crazy lately. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I am graduating next Saturday. Does that blow anyone else's mind? Anyways my school is lame and makes us to retarded things that I hate that have been keeping me busy but I am sure no one wants to read about that. So, cool things are happening in my life. I am going on my last Walden expedition last week. I am going to Capitol Reef for 3 days and I am praying that I will have a good time because right now I am worried that it will be terrible. Then I graduate. Then I am off to London for 2 weeks and I think I'll vlog while I am there, then edit and post when I get back, not sure though. Now is the super crazy news! (You'll probably only understand if you are LDS but if you aren't just be excited for me) Guys! I was called to be a girls camp director! I am so stoked! So I get to go to girls camp like 2 days after I get home so that will be crazy fun. I am kinda worried though, orientation for school is the same time as girls camp and I'm not sure what I'm gonna do yet. Is it important? Is it mandatory? Anyone know? Anyways once I get home from girls camp I start school. I am so busy all of a sudden, it's so strange. So know you know about my life.
Friday, May 7, 2010
I think I am unemployable. It is impossible to find a job that I would enjoy around here. I don't want to work somewhere I hate because if I hate it then I wont get any work done. But I would really like a job. I am also nowhere near the best and I am terrible at essays therefore no scholarship money for me. This means that I need to pay for everything by myself but wait, I don't have a job. I have absolutely no income. This is an issue. I just got an email that says I have to pay for tuition soon and it costs a ton of money. I am screwed. So many angry words are bouncing around my head.