I got this?

Many prayers, tears, mistakes, a years worth of venting and a blessing later I think I can finally do it. I can finally end it. I am going to try to stand up for myself for the first time in years. I am going to be honest and just say exactly how I feel. Maybe something along the lines of "I'm just not ready for this and this isn't what I want or need right now". I am going to do whatever it takes to get out of this situation because I know it's what I need to do it and I know I'll be grateful in the long run. I just got to do. I can't back down. I am not going to be physical when I am not ready to be. I am not going to be a tease and lead someone on. I am not going to inconvenience myself just because I don't want to hurt some one's feelings. My life and my sanity needs to be my priority in life for once. I am going to take care of myself and keep control of my life and the situations I am put into.