Monday, April 26, 2010

Things I Don't Want To Do

Write the English Elections paper for U.S. Gov
Finish up my senior paper
Go to the Senior Luncheon/Presentation
Go to school
Apply for more scholarships
Take Finals
Take CRTs

Saturday, April 17, 2010

woman in mind....

Monday I auditioned for the play Woman in Mind and I ended up getting the lead. So that's cool. But what's not cool is the fact that I was told that there are some slightly sexual lines and I thought, okay, some and slightly isn't too bad I am sure I can handle it. I was also told that I needed to have a stage kiss and I was thinking, okay, it's probably just a peck so I can possibly get myself to do that. But in reality the play is uber sexual (including a sex scene) and I would have to make-out on stage and now I would like to quit because that is not my style at all and the whole thing makes me super uncomfortable. I tried to tell Dallas how I felt and I don't think that went over very well. I don't want him to think that I am a complainer or a quitter but I am completely uncomfortable with the entire thing and I am 94% sure I am not the only one. At the cast meeting on friday Kevin said he wanted to quit and I think that it was mostly due to the amount of sexual content in the play. It's just crazy. I don't want to quit because I really like acting and I would feel bad dropping out and leaving Ingrid to find another lead but this is driving me bonkers. I just feel like I was kinda mislead about what I had to do for this play. GAH!! Any idea what I should do?

Monday, April 12, 2010


Dear Maren, Chance, Andrew, Shi, Spencer, Kathrine
Thanks for making the end of my spring break so fantastic. I love you guys.

Also. Only 7 weeks of high school left.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood!

I am so happy today! It's very strange. Also my day was fantastic so now you get to read all about it.

James called me at noon and asked if I wanted to go to lunch with him and Nathaniel and since his call woke me up and I hadn't eaten anything yet I agreed. I am so glad I went, those boys are so ridiculously fantastic. We ate at village inn and we got free pie, made jelly towers and had this weird ice competition that I have no idea how to explain. It was a party.

Then I went to go get my passport and international student id with my family so I could go to London. It took a long time but it was okay because there was a bunch of Time magazines laying around that I got to read. Time magazine is the shiz.

After we got all of that shenanigans taken care of my mom decided that she was too tired to cook so we went to Burgers Supreme, and for those of you that don't know they have the greatest garden burgers ever. So that was fun.

Then Sam and I headed up to the Clothesline Project at UVU. It was terribly amazing. It was really nice to read about other people who are going through stuff. When I was at the table full of girls making shirts, it was the least alone I have felt in a long time. It was a terrible but good feeling. Terrible because we are all relating to each other because of abuse but good because I realized I wasn't the only one. Another thing I thought was interesting was that they had these sounds going off at a set time and the longer you stayed in the exhibit the less you would notice the noise, it just reminded me of our terrible society and how abuse "isn't that big of a deal" now a days and we have just become desensitized . Anyways I loved it.

Also, don't forget to go barefoot tomorrow.
I love you guys! Thanks for reading about my life.
I am thinking about getting rid of the title picture thing.. do you have any thoughts about that?

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Another List

Things I Hate:
Utah's Bipolar Weather
The Walden School
People that are stupid because it's "cute"
Not having a job
Not having a drivers license
When people write like they are texting
When pple txt lik thiz
Stress eating
Over the top weddings
When people my age talk to me like I am 5
Thanksgiving & Christmas
How addicting chocolate is
Kids Bop
When someone commits suicide and then people realize there is an issue
The fact that the world is so messed up
My lack of skills
Feeling guilty all the time
Feeling alone but saying no when people ask to hang out
Abusive people
When bugs get caught in your hair right by your ear
The crappy internet at my house
I can't get myself to trust anyone
When people think I am the one that ratted them out

This is all I dare to put on the Internet